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28 Jul 2015, 13:32

Kevin,

Words can't explain the pain & trauma that you have put me through when you sexually abused me when I was 6 years old, I don't know if I'll ever be able to forgive you for what you did to me. What gave you the right to commit such an unforgittable sin? You stole my childhood and you took away my innocence.
I still remember that day when you took me behind the old house thinking that we we're Just going to play like kids do but instead you abused me behind the old house.
You ruined my life and because of you I'm emotionally scarred for life, I can't trust any men because every time I even look at a man I see that image of you abusing me.
What gave you the right to take away my innocence and what gave you the right to take away my childhood? You had no right to do that. While your walking around free and happy I'm living with the pain, suffering and flashbacks of the pain and suffering that You have put me through and that is something I will never be able to forget or forgive.

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28 Jul 2015, 19:15

Kevin's a piece of shit. There are no words in any language for how sexual abuse feels and the way I feel towards those that do it. Once you switch from viewing yourself as a victim to a survivor, things change. It's a really hard switch and I'm working on making the switch myself. I hope you don't mind me giving some advice and I hope I'm not saying anything insensitive or rude, but I wanna try giving my two cents. Try not to allow his actions to keep you down like this. He's already taken so much. Forgive not for him, not to absolve him, but to find peace with yourself and light in your heart. When we forgive, we just let go of all the negativity the scenario brought us. We don't absolve the wrongdoer of his sins. When we hold on to grievances, it's like dirty water of the soul and mind. You deserve to deal with this in any way you want, but remember to let it go when you're ready. Work on letting go (even though it isn't fair that you have to work on letting this go.) Anyway, fuck him and what he did to you. I hope you're able to find peace after this because you didn't deserve any of it.

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28 Jul 2015, 19:58

I'm so sorry you had to go through that :(. I hope you'll find the strength to take @anonnymouse advices because everything they said i think was pretty helpful and different from what I've seen on this app about this issue. Everything was so on point that it actually made me think too.. If i can do it so can you love. Just read this every time you need to as a reminder and then slowly think about talking to someone and maybe get professional help if you need to but like the comment above said, it's your right to deal with this the way you want to but sometimes you do need a hand and I believe everyone can make it if they never lose hope and never stop trying to have for themselves a better life❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

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