When i was 16-17 i dated a guy who i dated once when i was 13. I was so happy to have him in my life but...he wasnt the same guy i fell in love with. He was very abusive and he ended up raping me three times. After we broke up due to him breaking up with me i found out that he was fucking my best friend behind my back. Even though its been a couple years since the rape i still feel the effects of it. Im very timid and shy around males do to this. He told me why he raped me. It was because he was stressed out. I still to this day blame myself for being raped. Am i right?